Geek out complete (day 65)

The NAS is set up.  It works fabulously.  It is acting as a Time Machine, file server, iTunes server, audio station, and photo station.   I can upload and download files remotely which is great when I'm at work and need project files.  It's really neat to be able to stream my audio library from anywhere using my iPhone.  It's too bad iTunes does not do that on the iPhone.   For home, I'll have to buy an Airport Express to get my iTunes library to output onto the speakers in the living room, with iTunes remote on the iPhone to control the playback. 

I feel more responsible already.  I'm ashamed to admit I was at the mercy of the disk gods until today.  So far, I've had good luck with hard disks but luck always runs out. 

This weekend of geeking out has left me feeling distant from work, like it's a world far far away.  I wish I'd set aside a bit more time to enjoy the sun.  Especially today.

A song for this post.

NAS love (day 64)

I got a new toy today.  A brand new NAS - the Synology DS209j.  1TB of storage in RAID1, all networked with an iTunes and web server.  Inside are two Western Digital Caviar Green 1TB drives.  I'm still configuring but I'm expecting that my life will be all joy and ribbons once it's online.  Next I buy an Airport Express.  And music will ring throughout.



A song for this post.

I'm not in love (day 63)

I used to fall in love with technology easily and deeply.  New gadgets, new tools, new languages, they all  triggered enough interest and hope that I would just fall in, willingly believing that they would change everything.  There are books that end in that phrase.  How x changes everything.   I still fall in love.  Now though I don't feel the love back in the way I used to and I lose interest a bit faster.  Sometimes I resist falling in love.  I don't love Twitter and Twitter doesn't love me.  It's a shallow conviction.  I will eventually get a Twitter account, if only to steep in a new crowd language for a time.  I appreciate that the online culture has fallen in love with social media.  I picture it in my head and I see the fascination in our eyes, the infatuation.  It's sweet and naive and joyful all at the same time.   What I don't love is everything becoming a nail to be hammered by social media.  This too shall pass.  I'm looking for the next stage.  If we've been solipsistic, perhaps we need to have a call and response situation.  I heard the term 'sentient city' today.   The holy grail of being heard is when the city responds automatically.  The grand telematics experiment.  It might evolve into a kind of SimVanCity where popular beliefs and desires are mocked up and tried out before being moved into the physical world.  It might be a mixture of virtual and real.  The idea of a more direct response to our social participation is attractive.  I'm not in love yet, but I could be.

A song for this post.

Degenerative diagnostic (day 62)

My neck is fine.  No pain now.   A month or so of pain after the accident but now no pain.  So the diagnostic of degenerative arthritis from an x-ray of my shoulders and neck was unexpected and a disorienting.  Did I know that, he asked?  No of course I didn't know that.   The discussion was deferred to the physiotherapist.  I left confused about the word degenerative.  I know what arthritis is.  It's what old people get in their joints that causes a lot of pain and deformities.  I told myself that nothing had changed but on my way home from the medical centre I shopped compulsively and got home with no other desire than to order pizza.  I was deflated.  Usually I'm delighted if I get home with enough time to prepare a salad and another side dish.   Pizza it was.  Fire-roasted vegetable pizza with a thin crust.  All organic.  At least there's that.  On a scale of junk to healthy I wasn't hitting the bottom.  I went to bed early, reading a story of a woman with early onset dementia.  I woke up still deflated but early enough to get in about an hour and half of exercise.   That helped a lot.  No pain in my neck.  I started to see the ridiculous nature of the worry.  A label.  Someone put a label on you.   Degenerative doesn't mean it's inevitably going to get worse, it means it got to this point from wear (computer typing posture probably doesn't help).   I stopped feeling old and decrepit and made a pancake, enjoying every bite.   The only thing I can do is be healthy and stop going for X-rays.

A song for this post.

Step on a crack (day 61)

Superstition.  It makes up a large part of our belief systems.  Complexity breeds superstition by the sheer number of contributing factors to a particular outcome and the unpredictability of said outcome.   We don't want to believe that bad things happen to good people so we choose to believe in a higher power that somehow knows what they are doing.  In that belief, we convince ourselves that power has a fickle personality that we must assuage.  I don't happen to have that particular superstition but I do have others.  I take the stairs instead of the escalator or elevator because I think that if I don't I will increase my chances of becoming paralyzed in the future.   I don't use locker 13.  People that suffer from migraines are also prone to rituals or avoidances  sometimes based on evidence but often with some degree of superstition involved.   At the root of superstition there may be some rational behaviour.   By superstitiously participating in particular behaviours we 'fix' some parameters while allowing others to vary.   So if we get sick for example, we can say things like "I wash my hands after shaking hands with anyone, so that can't be it".   It just allows us to rule out or include causes that are either ritually absent or present.   So it affords some control.  The point at which rational action becomes superstitious ritual is the point at which we forgot why we do it, or we have become unable to vary it without some kind of emotional stress ("the sky will surely fall if I floss _before_ I brush").  On the surface, it seems likely that scientists would be less prone to superstition but in practice that hasn't been my observation.  It seems that beside the stuff that can be scientifically studied, there remains plenty that is chaotic and beyond measure.  Like why your lover left suddenly leaving not even a note.

There seems to be two types of superstition: one to stave off the bad and one to invite the good.  It is likely that people have an implicit preference toward one or the other.  I tend to fall in the superstition for the summoning of good category.   I believe that people that are superstitious to stave off bad or in a kind of prison where more and more superstitions are likely to be added since bad things happen anyway.  At least it seems more a slippery slope.  Superstition for generating good is self-perpetuating but not in an ever-growing way.   Believing in a parking goddess for example just means you praise your goddess every time you get a parking spot, and remember those times all the more.

A song for this post.

Contextual belief (day 60)

I just listened to Peter Schiff speak in a somewhat desperate tone about the US dollar being devalued and on route to becoming worthless.  Hyperinflation.  He sounded scared or maybe a mixture of incredulous and desperate for people to wake up.  He sounded convincing perhaps in large measure because he's Peter Schiff, predictor of collapses.   I tried to imagine it was someone else saying these things and how much I believed it.  I do this kind of context test sometimes when I'm in a new city and feel like it's very different than where I came from.  I imagine that I'm actually in my home city, just somewhere I've never walked or driven before.  Where is it in the city?  Close to which neighbourhood?  I get curious about how much cognitive effort it takes to map the new city to my home city and how I feel about the new city afterward.   I do this as an exercise to see how clouded my perception might be by the assumption that where I am is totally different because it's thousands of kilometres away and the people dress differently.  I admit this may strike some people as odd (I know it).  But try it sometime.  It's actually a neat exercise to challenge contextual bias.   Once you start doing it in one situation, it's sort of addictive.  So back to Peter Schiff and his ilk - the people that speak with conviction and write books.  There was something in Peter's voice that was haunting, like a 'please wake up' quality.  I found myself thinking about context but this time in a different way.   Could the things that we are told about other incompetent or 'evil' governments apply to the United States?  And I'm not talking about the direct aggression.  I'm talking about the deliberate devaluing of currency combined with misinforming the public.  You know the type of behaviour that gets people clanging pots out of windows and into the streets, en masse.   I couldn't quite make the leap of context but I came close.  The changes are happening in slow motion so it's hard to understand the trajectory and harder to believe that it couldn't be stopped.  So far, Peter Schiff has convinced me that shifting money away from US currency is probably a safe and good idea.  But not convinced enough to call every one of my friends and tell them to do so.  Trust is so hard to come by.  One thing's for sure, extreme points of view are good at changing the context suddenly if not permanently.

A song for this post.

Feel the lungs (day 59)

Today I had lunch with Joy James and we talked about the Breath I/O project.  She asked me some interesting questions about the type of affect we would like the piece to have.  Why do what we are doing?  How will people feel the experience of the lungs and the video and the sound and the interface?  As she was talking and asking questions I could feel my mind going from the how to the why.  I am so often preoccupied with the technical details of doing something.   It felt nice to speak of the audience, to picture them in the room,  to imagine the sounds they might hear.  At first I pictured only one person entering a large dark room (the mocap studio actually) where the sound was louder than the picture.  The sounds were enveloping, breath like, rhythmic and calm.  There are several places to sit down near the ground and in front of each seat there is an object, each one different.  The lungs are in a chorus formation breathing in sync, the video interchanges between them.  The person picks up an object and holds it.  One of the lungs gradually takes on more importance visually and the video is more consistent and clear.  The sound of the video is heard over the breath.  The singled out lungs have more personality and are not so in sync with the rest of the chorus which has faded to the background.  The lungs are reacting to the video that is playing within them, sometimes sighing, sometimes coughing, sometimes fast breathing, sometimes deep breathing.   The object vibrates in a association with the lungs.   When more objects are picked up more lungs approach and start to interact with each other and the objects. 

The feeling of the environment to be calm and conducive to a reflection on the bittersweet nature of life,  the life cycles, the exchanges we have with people, the constant give and take of life.  The preciousness and sadness of being human.  The joy of movement and breath, of health.

Thanks for the talk Joy.

A song for this post.

Wild things (day 58)

"Mommy that was a sad movie".  That's what a little boy said at at the closing credits of Where The Wild Things Are.  He repeated it, looking for confirmation.  I didn't hear what his mom said but I imagine she didn't say "that's just real life, Sam".   But, just as Max realized in the movie, that's exactly what it might have been.  It wasn't sad in a tragic way, it was just sad in a regular disillusioned way.   What did surprise me is the slightly psychotic character of Carol.  He was a mixture of paranoid schizophrenic and bipolar.  The line "he doesn't mean to be that way, he's just scared" is a little too close to an excuse you give for someone's abusive behaviour.  The character of KW was good but it was never clear why she wanted out except to get away from psychotic Carol.  She was the most grounded of them all even though she had her own escapes (shooting owls out of the sky?!?).   I guess in the end I have to agree with the little boy.  The movie was sad.   It was sad because everyone was looking elsewhere for happiness.  To the king, the owls, the boat, the utopic city, the dirt clump war.  No one gets happy in the end but they are one failure closer to getting there maybe.

I never read the book.  I wasn't even aware of the book as I was growing up.  Perhaps because I grew up in Quebec?  Perhaps it wasn't translated?  I wonder how close the movie is to the book or the spirit of it anyway.  It's got me curious. 

A song for this post.

Hello lungs (day 57)

I took some time today to render the lung model to see if I could get the transparency to work correctly and maybe play around with the video mapping.  I got as far as getting the transparency to work and then ran into a resolution problem.  To my chagrin, Touch Designer will only render to a maximum horizontal resolution of 1280...unless I pay $599 for a commercial license (per machine).  I've asked if they have educational pricing and we'll see.  It's strange that I hadn't notice this before when I rendered to the screen in the lab.  But looking back, it does explain the slightly squished look of the lungs.   Even at the slightly lower resolution, the lungs look pretty good.  I'm really starting to get fond of the shape of the lungs.  They're almost friendly and sweet.  Here is a pic (which is down-res'd):

The grey scale give it a medical X-ray look.  I wanted to keep it neutral until the video is added to see if it has a fluoroscopy look.  We'll see.  Trent is currently working on the texture coordinates.

I also spent some time learning Field which I can run now that I have my Macbook Pro.  It feels like learning a new language even if the component elements (Java, Python, OpenGL) are familiar.  It feels to me like a tool I could seriously love after spending some hours with it.   It reminds me of the old Unix days with lots of command line and immediate feedback.  It also makes me a bit worried that I would write something in Field and a few months later remember nothing of the mental model that led me to a particular design (i.e. more than one way to shoot yourself in the foot).   But this minor worry is not going to stop me.   I'll just trust that I knew what I was doing at the time I wrote the program which, believe it or not, is hard to do.  The belief that I am smarter in the present, so smart in fact that I know better than the previous self who was immersed in the code, is always lurking.

A song for this post.

Is this real life? (day 56)

Reality.  That word gets more fuzzy every day.  It's one of those words where you think you know what it is but as soon as you start explaining it you end up neck deep in caveats.  It's a fuzzy concept precisely because it's defined as 'you know it when you're in it'.   The first crack is the realization that you're never out of it.   Maybe we should specify 'shared reality'.  That's a little closer to something precise and takes care of dream and drug spaces.  The real problem is that beyond straight up stimulus to our sense organs, there is a layered conceptual reality which is emergent and involved in a feedback loop on itself.  The term shared reality is a little better because it recognizes that the forces on the conceptual layers are largely shared by immediate neighbours (in a physical and/or cultural sense).   I recently saw a documentary on Jonestown where they explained that loudspeakers were constantly broadcasting Jones' voice.  At no time or place could the residents be free of his voice and his opinions.  He offered a view of the outside world that was both paranoid and delusional and they had no way of verifying what he was saying.  They were still in the same sensual reality that all people inhabit but their shared conceptual reality was both disconnected and discontinuous from the other shared realities.  What is astonishing is that at the moment between life and death only a few people trusted their basic sensual reality and decided to run.  Some after seeing their children die.  And these were not weak or deficient people.  They worked hard and had ideals that are hard to argue with.  The situation again brings up my paranoia about not knowing what I don't know.   It's important to diversify media sources.  And even then, you still have to suss out the most likely facts.  When the Yes Men pulled their last prank about the US Chamber of Commerce reversing its stance on climate change, it reminded me again how arbitrary the truth is.

A song for this post.

Act now and... (day 55)

Have you ever been so busy that new opportunities seemed more like problems?   Especially ones that come with some kind of expiry date?  Like act now or forever lose out to another that will take advantage of this opportunity because they're not so busy?   I feel this way about a lot of things these days but I figure one of the better skills in life is learning how to properly finish things.   Anyone can start things.  So I must finish some of the projects I've started before taking on new ones.  I know this.  But there is a lagging feeling that perhaps I should 'reserve my seat' at the table of the other opportunities.  Just start it and then sort of sit on it for a while.   It may be disingenuous.  In any case, it's a good problem.

Meanwhile, the projects go on.  The Interactive Futures conference is less than a month away and the lineup of events looks great, if a little full.  I'm very grateful for the help we've had.  Such amazing students helping out.   The lung project is crawling along but definitely still moving.  The lungs look good and I've been able to import them into Touch Designer with some tweaking of the model.   Next up is the bump map texture, and texture coordinates.  After that I'll try to make a chorus and see how many we can get in there before the frame rate drops too much.  Then I'll mess around with the video and see if some good effects can be created in and out of the lungs (then alternate this step with the last one).  This will take us the Interactive Futures easily...and perhaps I'm being overly optimistic about that.  Time moves on.

A song for this post.
(as an additional musical note...I heard Cris Derksen perform tonight at the Western Front and I thought she was fabulous.  Here is one piece that she performed).

@irk (day 54)

I'm @annoyed at all @the @$*%*( @tagging that's going @on.   Seriously I can't read people's posts without being cognitively interrupted all the time.  Is it me?  Am I just programmed to pause at an @?  Is my inner voice too loud?  What, if, I put, commas, everywhere, would, that be the, same?  Yup, seems to be.   But the @ has the additional annoyance of being visually prominent.    I have to learn to relax with the @.  Love it, view it as decoration to be skipped or acknowledged after the fact.   Part of a well written text is the fact that it disappears.  I love the lilt of a good turn of phrase.   I love the flow of a nicely timed sentence.  So far the @ destroys that for me.  This annoyance was partially triggered by the cross-posting from twitter to facebook.  In the twitter world the @ has a function that is definitely not the same in Facebook.  I think of a post on FB as being addressed to everyone, but what sometimes happens with cross-posted tweets is that certain people are named or it's obviously a response to something and it feels like it ended up on my FB feed by accident.   Like receiving an invite to a party that's not addressed to you.   It's visual and cognitive noise.

ta@

A song for this rant.

Today was (day 53)

Today I've made history.  Again.  Too bad it wasn't recorded.   Today I looked at the gorgeous gin bottle and thought wouldn't it be nice if it worked.  Today the idea of cucumber in gin made me grin.  Today I made okra and it was delicious.  Today lots of little quirky things happened.  Lots of little unplanned laughs with unlikely people.   Some leaps of logic that escaped me and then surprised me.  Some beyond the call of duty stuff that deserve a giant spotlight.   Some emails that were easy to answer.  Today I still ended up dead tired but perhaps a tinge more grateful for my life.  So may this post be a celebration of the little things that make a day productive and fun at the same time.

A song for this post.

Guestbook nostalgia (day 52)

I took some time today and fixed the broken link to the Digital Guest Book that I made for the IDS opening.  For reasons related to mySQL versions, I had stored it on a server other than my own and eventually that server was no more.  I've now migrated everything over but in so doing I've lost the timestamps for the signatures which is a little sad.  I'll see if I can recover them from the signature files themselves, stored on my tablet.

Looking at it now after almost 3 years it feels nice to see some of the comments.  I recognize some of my friends and even some I didn't even had come or signed.  If I have a bit more time (maybe Christmas break?), I'd like to change the animation to be a bit smoother.

Anyway, take a look and sign if you'd like (during the opening, it was displayed on a tablet so it was easier to sign).  The signature won't be stored but you'll see it animated while the app runs.

A song for this post.

Swine repellent (day 51)

I am aware of H1N1 -- who isn't.  I have so far stayed away from any flu vaccines based on the fact that I don't tend to get sick.  I reason that I should not fix what is not broken.   I have a superstition that if I artificially boost my immune system, I will wreck the naturally strong immune system I've been blessed with.  I have no evidence that this would happen but because nothing bad has happened stemming from this belief, it doesn't matter whether it's true or not.  With the re-appearance of the swine flu, it seems like it's starting to matter.   The word on the street is that it likes young women.  I may be on or past the cusp of not being a young woman but still it gives me pause.  The fact that perfectly healthy young people can be struck down by this virus is perplexing.   The mantra of only the very young, very old, or immunocompromised people needing to worry is suddenly a little too simplistic.

Apparently the H1N1 vaccine will be available within a month and undoubtedly I will offered the vaccine at the school.  The question will be called.  And it seems that it is both an individual  and communal decision.   Anecdotally I hear that mothers are particularly irked and more likely to chastise other mothers bringing their sick toddlers to playgrounds and pay groups.  Would I be the target of a mild communal reprimand if I refused the vaccine?  Is not getting the vaccine an irresponsible act?  I wonder.  I will continue to think on this.  I don't like the idea of something foreign being injected in my body.  But I don't like the idea of worrying about every little sore throat that comes my way. 

A song for this post.
(the song was composed from the dna sequence of the swine flu)

New is old news (day 50)

Have we always been obsessed with the new?  Before there were stores, what was new?  Before there were peer reviewed journals, what was new?  Before there were internet rankings, what was new?  Before patents?  It seems that new is relative but we use the word as if it's absolute.  For me, new has been a sore spot for many years because it often drives a wedge between creativity and responsibility.  I see it in my students too.  If what you are passionate about is not new in the absolute sense, where do you go from there?  To graduate you need something original but yet you need to go through some well trodden steps before coming close to new.  I often tell the story of being stuck during my doctoral research and my supervisor telling me that if everything seems grey, go toward the thing that is a a little less grey.   If you lose the thread of interest, you have to take little steps out.   It's important that personal interest remains a priority and is honoured as unique in the individual.    In fact, the relationship between unique and new is perhaps worth a second look.   In reality, journals and patents are rewarding something in between unique and new.   Same with degrees.   In digital media the new has been especially problematic because technology changes so quickly.   If an artist is using old technology, are they behind or somehow not worthy of being called a digital media artist?  Clearly not, but often there is an impulse to use the latest even as the old has not been explored to its fullest.  I think it's better to view the available tech as mere ingredients.  My winning recipe will not be the same as my neighbour's even if our ingredients are the same.  The unique fusion of ingredients is what should be celebrated.  In computing science, we also talk about the difference between the model and the view.   The model is the underlying structure of the data and processes.  The view is how we choose to represent the model to the senses.   Two data artists with the same dataset (model) will not produce the same visualization (view).   Is it new to re-represent a data set?  I would argue that it is.

Our relationship to new is based on immediate needs and interest.  Something may linger for decades before being dug up as new, interesting, and useful.  Traditionally we've trusted our gatekeepers to tell us what is new but I'm seeing a trend where the crowd is perfectly able to suss that out for itself.   And what's neat about that is that the definition of new is implicit and much more fluid.  My students still need to defend their thesis but the real feedback on the work happens in the frenzy of the crowd.

A song for this post.

Ungrounded wall (day 49)

Some days are just a little ungrounded.  Like today.  I woke up way too late and so did Steve.  We were both thrown into the day with no time to say hello.  The whole day reeled from this.  Everything I did seemed like it was late or instead of something else I should be doing.  Not that I wasted time, not at all.  It just felt all out of step like the beat and I never met.  Even now as I write this I have a craving for an unknown balm.  This is what drives people to eat, that feeling of needing something.  I'm pretty sure it's not food I'm craving, but movement.  No time to exercise and computer work all day makes for a pretty underutilized body.  Everyone should dance every day.  I usually do but today no dance and no joy.

I spent many hours today tweaking a 3D model of the Israeli/Palestinian wall superimposed on a 3D topo map of San Francisco.  It's not quite there yet but hopefully a bit more work and it'll be ready to be 3D printed for an upcoming exhibition.  The work is the brainchild of Paula Levine.  What stunned me most as I was working on the models is how long the wall is - and how tall.  It's amazing that most people either don't know this wall is being built or don't know the scale of the project.  This is a wall whose boundaries are chosen based on fear and greed.  It separates people from each other and from their livelihood.  I wonder how many more walls before we realize it just doesn't work.

A song for this post.

Go project go (day 48)

I am not a project manager.  I have many projects and they are all plodding along but most likely not as efficiently as they could.   My colleague Kara has pointed me to Action Method, a startup that claims to help with project management with a proven way of working.   And now of course we're back to the old magic-incantation-that-will-make-everything-perfect dream.  But I'm attracted to it.  Perhaps  attracted enough that I'll try it.  I've tried Basecamp before with some limited success.  The difference with ActionMethod is that a) it looks nice and b) it has an iPhone app.  Good design is crucial in a project management application.  You don't want to be overwhelmed by an interface when the task at hand is already overwhelming.  Good colours,  not too cluttered, intuitive placement, good level of notification, consistent language, these are all characteristics to aim for.   So far I'm impressed with AM.   I've got about six projects on the go which could use some management help.  It's a lot and most of them are collaborations with people.  Which brings me to the next hurdle with project management software.  You have to convince others to use it.  Everyone has their way of dealing with project tasks and information.  Some make Google sites, Google docs, Google tasks, Google calendar, blogs and wikis.  Some just have an ingenious use of folders, emails, and post-its.   It's hard to convince people to switch.   The best you can hope for is some sort of integration where systems can blend so that people can slowly be lured into a self-contained application.  And really not wanting to switch is completely rational.  It's an investment in time to transcribe a project's assets and tasks.  It's an investment in time to learn a new way of doing things. Why would this work if everything else has been a disappointment is a rational question.   In the end it may come down to discipline and a consistent process.  But I have to say it doesn't hurt if the software looks good.

The panacea of project management is a lure.  The promise of software solutions is a lure.  I spend so much time online that managing my projects there makes a lot of sense. I already do that in my own little ad-hoc way.   But another important aspect for me is to actually step away from the computer and get a better overall perspective.  That may be a chart on the wall or a white board drawing.  The point is to be able to actually stand with the big view.  Stop looking at a tiny window and think bigger.  Because windows actually do change the way we think.  We unconsciously think smaller when we look at a 15" screen.  And this is another reason why AM seems to be worthwhile.  They sell physical products to go with their software.  I'm not advocating spending money on this but I like the fact that they are thinking outside of the digital realm.  Perhaps they should also weigh in about space design for project management.

A song for this post.

There's more here (day 47)

Geotagging is hot.  I like the idea of say Twitter being geotagged a lot except it brings up a bit of anxiety about being too public.  This is different than the stage fright I felt when I opened my first blog nine years ago.  At that time I was afraid of the judgment, not so much people knowing too much.  That fear came later when it became obvious that the internet does not easily forget.   Geotagged twitter or any immediately broadcast note service is like painting graffiti out in the open.  It better be good and/or sanctioned.    It brings up so many issues of what one may do with a simple lat long.  If that lat long happens to index government land,  are there restrictions on what you can say?  What about a mall or a store?   Owners of that spot will want to control what gets posted.

Geotagging is an extension of the 'i like it, i don't like it' principle to place which in some ways makes it much more personal.   Still I can see so many good things that could happen.  Favourite places can be highlighted with instructions about where to look, history sliders could highlight the changes in that place, stories of that place, replays of the last year's tweets to/on that place, songs tagged to that place.   It really could be little treasures to be found on an ordinary stop somewhere.  Ordinary magic really.   People could leave compliments about each other's houses or garden (I know I'm heading fast into Utopia).   The landscape could respond with subtle clues that geotagged content would complement the experience if we let it.  

The upshot is that we leave traces of ourselves as a matter of daily life and it's being extended into the digital and then back into the physical.   Geo-tagged visualizations will be interesting: as always aesthetically pleasing aggregators will be great gifts.   I think sound will also play an important role in how we become aware that a certain place is rich with content.   Still the issue of forgetting remains.  In real life traces fade and biodegrade.  Not so in the geotagged world.  Maybe forgetting is just something we selectively apply to data as a matter of habit and ethic.

A song for this post.

Shiny and old (day 46)

A small package of new just entered my life.  A shiny aluminum package.  The click of the keyboard is louder and the click pad is stiff.  I've rebooted twice and each time I marvel at how quick it is.  Each time something new comes in a little bit of disappointment also sets in shortly after.  Chogyam Trungpa wrote that disappointment is a source of great learning.   He also called enlightenment the ultimate disappointment.  He might have been on to something.  Disappointment is that feeling you get when you come face to face with your projections onto the future, the object, the person.   Feeling disappointment can be the pointer to the places where you still long for the magic formula.  So I suppose the ultimate disappointment would be the deep realization that this is it and there is no magic incantation, no super perfect way to be, no state of grace where you are judged good and worthy of a life without suffering of any kind.  There is simply the capacity for delight in paying attention to what is.

I am grateful for the shiny in my life.  I'm also grateful for the aging in my life.  And this is the curious thing.  When I think about having something new, the feeling is so completely different from taking care of something (or someone) aging.   They are both full of projections, but one is a promise of ease, and the other is a promise of struggle.  But the reality is that in the taking care of the old I appreciate the life lived.  In those moments when I let the joy of the process seep in, the old is a gift.

One of my favourite songs for this post.